can you actually force someone to become who you want them to be?

its not that i dont want to be that person

i know i always say give me time

i know you never trust those words

time is limited on this earth and yet i still ask for time

i climb back up yet i fall back down to zero

and everytime all i do is dissapoint you

you gave me either .. or

when all i want is your companionship, your friendship

not to pick or choose what i am to you

ive learn lots from you and all i can say is thank you

i dont want this to be the end of the road

people change to adjust to suit everything that is happening around them

and you out of all the people in the world should know that i go through change all the time

maybe to you, you may seem like you havent changed

you told me you had to change towards me

i know you dont like doing this and i dont like you doing this either

im just another lost teenage sole trying to figure things out in life day by day

trying new things and putting away old things

you can call me weak, you can call me "worldly"

but what i face is more than what you think

you always tell me you know but do you really?

you know ill be here for you any day, any hour, any minute

i also want to thank you for being around for me and never giving up

but i guess to everything there is a limit and this time around;
i have pushed that line a little bit more

i guess you can now say you have given up on me

after our long 'talk' all i could do is pity myself

helpless and even more alone now

but i understand

things will probably never be the same again

even though ill see you in random family dinners/lunch

but does it all have to go just like that?

well ... all things are possible ... if you just have faith right?

so ill keep you in my prayers

till we can be normal again

sorry for the extreme long emo-ness

but sorry guys.. no fancy pics no fancy words on this post

its just me and my feelings towards someone =(