i have this love.hate relationship with
winter
its like i love it that its cold and you dont need to sweat and you can drink hot chocolate or coffee and its the best feeling in the world
but then on the other hand ...
i hate how you have to wear many layers and look fat i know if your fashionable enough you can pull something together but thing is i dont really wanna shop many winter clothes cuz i wont be using it again till my NEXT winter which is i dont know when so im just layering random clothes here and there and sometimes i look like
a real spaz
O_o
thank God i dont know anyone here on the streets
haha
and i own only two boots with the furrr currently and basically i wear those two everyday lol
i miss wearing heels - i really do
another thing about winter its real cold outside but once you get into the train or mall its like hot alert and then you find yourself struggling to keep up with the heat from the heaters and the heat from your body and the coat...
i dont know how these people do it but somehow i did it too

. . .
i did a badd thing a few days ago
i was real frustrated and was walking in shinjuku station
(its one of the craziest packed stations in the city)
and there was just tons of people and i hate crowds but anyway i was walking
(mind you people in japan walk with sPEEd - everyone is just rushing to somewhere)
well so in the midst of rushing when i dont need to be rushing i got caught behind this man who was walking too slow for the crowd and i got reall frustrated and said a few swear words and decided to cut him and as i looked back to give him that
`o-m-g-ur-blocking-everyone-you-idiot`bitch stare
i saw the man holding a stick and wearing sunglasses
and i soon realized he was blind
O_O
`o-m-g - im - the - idiot`
i know i know im the worst person alive!!
=( =(
i feel so bad im such a bad person!!!
omygosh i was totally like hit in the head with reality
i mean just cuz i wasnt in a good mood i didnt have to let it out on other people and you know i think that is what the world is about bad moods!!
if you are in a bad mood you would automatically do everything roughly or speak to someone in a rude way because your frustrated but then the other person who is minding their own business gets it too and that person gets frustrated and its like a vicious cycle..
omg -_-
which explains some murders like you accidently kill someone out of frustration but you really didnt mean to .. hmmm ok im starting to create my own self thesis or theory or some shit hahaha i dont know i just felt totally bad of my action im sorry mr!!!
but at least i didnt push him or anything *phew*

★★★★★

oh wat a week!